You've got your secrets locked inside, you've got them hidden so well.
I'm gonna break down all your walls and find out what you won't tell.
I know you think you're gonna slogan up the massive disguise.
Let's go right through into the bullshit, I see all of your lies.

Ashley's hiding something. And it's something important. He goes to Sandra's house every day and stays there for a few hours. I just need to know what the hell is going on.

"Ashley why do you spend so much time at Sandra's?" I asked.

"I just want to hang out with her."

"And you can't take your fiance?"

"Well I need to talk to her about stuff I just can't tell you."

"What is it? I'll try to understand."

"I just can't tell you baby. Let's go to sleep." He carried me to the bedroom and cuddled next to me.

"Goodnight baby." He whispered.

"Night." He snuggled next to me and kissed my cheek.

When I knew he was asleep, I put on a pair of pants and an actuall shirt. I got in the car and started driving to Sandra's house. I just had to know the truth.


I draw my guard, you played your card. You dug a hole in my skin!
You cut me deep, then watched me bleed, while you cleaned your innocence.
Facing your lies, your filthy lies, the truth is here on your face.
You keep in mind that I'm the one, my memories can't be erased!

I knocked on the door, unsure what I would say. She opened the door and looked all tired and grogy.

"Andy what the hell are you doing here at one in the morning?" She asked.

"I just need to know, why is Ashley here all the time?"

"Sandra who's at the door?" Asked some lady coming down the stairs.

"Just an old friend. Go back to bed sweetie." Sandra told her. "Come inside Andy." I walked in and sat on the couch.

"Who was that?"

"My girlfriend. What do you need again?"

"To know why Ashley's here all the time." Her eyes looked confused.

"What do you mean?"

"Ashley comes here everyday."

"I havn't seen Ashley in over a month. Are you sure he comes here?"

"He says he comes here."

"Well he doesn't. Sorry."

"Th-that means he's, he's lying to me."


Took your love and wasted all of it, on someone who could care less for you.
I give my word everything I said, came directly from my heart, it's true.

"Ashley fucking Purdy you have explaining to do!" I burst in the bedroom and turned on the lights.

"What?" He woke up and his voice was tired, which I would normally find cute. If it weren't the fact he's a liar.

"You have some explaining to do. Why did Sandra say you're not going to her house?"

"Uhh....."

"Answer me goddamn it!"

"Okay, okay. I'm not going to see Sandra."

"Where are you going?"

"Andy I love you, but there are some things that we need to leave unknown to protect the people we love."

"Just tell me!"

"Can't you see that I want to? But I can't." I couldn't take it so I just packed my stuff and started heading out the door.

"Where are you going?" He asked.

"If you can't tell me the truth, I can't stay in this house with you. I'm staying with my parents for a few days." I replied before going out the door.


Don't think I won't forget the things you've done, don't think you won't regret for being fun.
I've drawn my love with you, in the sand. Now I know you are the one, who is unforgiven.
Unforgiven!
Unforgiven!

"Andy why are you here?" My mom asked as she opened the door.

"Ashley's keeping something from me and I just can't handle it. Can I stay here for a few days?"

"Sure." She opened the door a little wider so I could walk in. Everything's as I remember it.

"Everything should be the same in your room." She said to me. I just walked up to my room. It's three in the morning! I'm fucking exhausted.

I just dropped my bags and fell down on the bed when I got there. I checked my phone to see I had a text from Ashley.

'Andy I'm sorry I can't tell you but don't think I don't want to.'

'Why can't you?'

'It's for your own good. Please come back.'

'Not until you tell me.'

'Come home and I'll tell you.'

'Promise?'

'Of course baby.'

'I'll come home tomorrow. I'm too tired to drive all that way at three in the morning.'

'Okay. Goodnight baby I love you.'

'Goodnight. Love you too.'

----------------------------------------------

"Aw Andy do you really have to go back to Ashley? You just got here." My dad complained.

"I'm sorry. I'll try to visit more often."

"Okay. Bye. Love you."

"Love you too dad." My mom came up and hugged me.

"Bye love you."

"Love you too mom. See you guys later." I said walking out the door.

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"Okay Ashley, I'm home. Explain."

"It's hard to explain. Just read these texts." He handed me his phone and there was a list of texts from some guy named Ben Bruce. Name sounds familiar. He's from that band Asking.. whatever. Can't remember the band name.

Ben: Remember our little deal. You don't want something to happen to your precious Andy, do you?

Ash: No.

Ben: Then remember to visit every day I want you to.

Ash: But you want me to come over every fucking day.

Ben: Exactly. You're just so fun. You're even better when you're not just laying there.

Ash: Well it's not my fault you're not as fun as Andy.

Ben: Oh somone wants to get hit, huh?

Ash: No...

Ben: Then I'd shut the fuck up, or I will hit you tomorrow. Now stop talking to me dirty slut.

I stopped staring at the phone and looked up at Ashley. He was tapping his leg nervously and I felt tears well up in my eyes.

"A-Ashley, are you having sex with him?" I asked, fighting back tears.

"Y-yes." He shuddered.

"Why? What does this have to do with me?"

"Me and Ben used to go out before I dated you. I broke up with him and he didn't like it when I started going out with you. Now, if I don't have sex with him when he pleases, he's going to kill you."

"I-I don't know what to say Ashley." I just sat down and burried my face in my hands. I felt myself about to cry.

The side next to me sunk down and I knew it was Ashley.

"Andy I'm so sorry. I didn't want to but I don't want to see you hurt, let alone killed." He hugged me and I just broke down crying.

You walked me to the gates of heaven, now I'm burning in hell.
Took something pure and true, turned into something to sell.
Can you live with yourself?!
Be trapped, and think about what you've done!
This is about the game you play, not the game that you won.

"Andy I have to go to Ben." Ashley said. Hearing his name made me want to kill someone.

"Fine." I said through clenched teeth.

"I love you." I didn't say anything and he just sighed and walked out the door.

"No you don't." I whispered to myself. I just curled on the couch and cried to myself.

Ashley POV

"Andy I have to go to Ben." I said to him. I didn't want to, believe me I didn't. But I had no choice.

"Fine." He said, obviously pissed.

"I love you." I said to him. He didn't say anything and I didn't feel like fighting with him. I just sighed and walked outside. As soon as I closed the door, I heard him crying. It's all my fault. I hurt my baby and he knows I have to continue in order to keep him alive.

I just drove to Ben's house and as soon as I got there, he started kissing my neck. He tried my lips but like every other time, I didn't let him.

"Come on baby, let me kiss those soft lips of yours." He whispered to me.

"I'm not your baby. I'm Andy's." I shouldn't have said that. Right after I did, he smacked me.

"You will not smart mouth me. Got it?" I nodded and he smiled. "Good. Now let me kiss your lips." He wrapped his arm around my neck and started kissing my lips.

It was horible. I can't believe Ben. Could someone be so jealous as to kill a man? He finally pulled away.

"Kiss back." He demanded.

"But I-" Before I could finish the sentence, he punched me in the stomach, knocking the breath out of me.

"Listen Ashley, you're sexy and all, but you're also smart enough to know how much I love a man who does what he's told. Now stand up straight, and kiss me back." I got up and when Ben pressed his lips on mine, I had no choice but to kiss back. It was awful. I just wanted to throw up then and there.

-------------------------------------------

"Well that was amazing. Get out of here you stupid whore." Ben said to me. I got out of the bed and started getting dressed. As soon as I got outside, I purged up every bit of his disgusting come he made me swallow.

I drove back to the house and Andy was asleep on the couch. I looked at him and saw his makeup was smeared all over his face.

"Baby I'm so sorry. I never mean to hurt you." I picked him up and carried him to our room.

After sitting there for a few minute just stroking his hair, I had to stop it. I can't let Ben do this to us anymore.


You think you're slick, but here's the trick.
I'll always know more than you know.
You choose your fate, whose masquerade, is done when you walk out the door.
Don't justify, your bullshit lies. It's so obvious that you're fake.
Who's fooling who? I know the truth. This drama is more than I can take.

"Oh Ashley, back so soon?" Ben smirked as he answered the door.

"I don't want to do this any more Ben." I said sternly.

"Oh but you have to."

"No."

"I will kill Andy if you stop this."

"Does Danny know about this?" I back-fired against him, remembering the research I did on him, and his boyfriend Danny.

"Why would it be Danny's buisness who I fuck?"

"Oh I'm sorry. Did you forget that you're dating the man?"

"No, I'm perfectly away that he's my boyfrined."

"Then why are you using me like this."

"Because I love you, silly boy."



Took your love and wasted all of it, on someone who could care less for you.
I give my word everything I said, came directly from my heart, it's true.


"You don't love me. You never loved me. You only wanted me for my body." I spat back.

"Oh, but you're wrong there. I loved you for your kind heart. I still love your body."

"Oh, but you can't have it any more. I'm done with you Ben. Leave me and Andy alone." I started walking outside when I felt something stab in my back.

There was a ringing in my ear and someone was hoovering over me and saying something. It was Ben but I don't know what he was saying. I saw him walk off and I grabbed my phone and called the first person who came to mind, Andy.


Andy POV

I woke up to someone calling me. I checked my phone to see Ashley's Caller ID. Speaking of which, where is Ash?

"Hello?" I answered.

"Andy, I'm.... sorry." I heard him say. He sounded like he had to force out the words.

"Ashley?! Ashley, where are you?"

"Ben's house."

"Say no more, I'm on my way." I quickly grabbed my keys and drove to Ben's house.

I knew where it was because I went passed it once. I pulled in his driveway and saw a figure laying on the porch. Ashley!

"Ashley baby!" I ran towards him.
Don't think I won't forget the things you've done, don't think you won't regret for being fun.
I've drawn my love with you, in the sand. Now I know you are the one, who is unforgiven.


"Ashley wake up." I rested his head in my lap and tried to keep him conciess.

"Might as well give up." I heard a British accent and looked up to see Ben. He was holding a blood stained knife.

"What did you do?!" I asked, my voice filled with anger and sadness.

"What I had to. It was you or him."

"It should've been me! Why did you kill him? Why didn't you fucking kill me! I'm the one dating him, I'm the one he left you for! I should've been ME!" I shouted.

"Well, there's a chance he'll make it... If I called the ambulance." He smirked.

"You bastard." I pulled my phone out and called 911.


You had your fun, with all that was forbidden, you are the one, who is unforgiven.

Go!


Twenty minutes later, the cops and ambulance came. They arrested Ben and carried Ashley out on a stretcher.

"Is he going to be alright?" I asked the paramedicts, not really wanting a responce.

"We don't know yet."

"Can I come in and ride with him?"

"How do you know him?"

"He's my fiance."

"Yeah sure." I climbed in with them and sat next to Ashley.

"Everything will be alright Ash. Stay strong." He was still breathing but lost concienceness.

At the hospital, I had to wait in the waiting room. I already called the guys and Sandra. They said they'd be there in a few minutes but I need someone now.

Finally, Sandra and her girlfriend walked through the door. Imediatly, she pulled me into a hug. I just started crying.

"Shhh, Andy it'll be alright." She tried calming me down.

"I know it's just, they said they don't know if he'll be alright. They don't fucking know!"

"Andy, just take deep breaths." She just let me cry in her shoulder while we waited for the other guys.

Finally, the all showed up. But I was a mess. My makeup was running down my face and I'm pretty sure my eyes were huge and puffy. But I was finally calm enough to talk.

"Andy what happened?" Jake asked.

"I-I don't know exactly. He left to go do his normal rutine with Ben Bruce-"

"Whoa! Back up! What does he do with Ben Bruce?" Sandra asked.

"Before me and Ash started dating, he was going out with Ben. He broke up with Ben for me and Ben wasn't so happy. He threatened to kill me if Ash didn't go over every day to have sex with Ben. Ash didn't want me to find out about it, so he told me he was going to Sandra's every day. That's when I figured out the truth. I don't know what happened after he left. All I remember is crying on the couch, waking up to Ashley calling me asking for help. When I got there, he was just laying on the porch and Ben admitted to stabbing Ashley in the back."

"Oh my god that's horible." Jinxx said, still struck with horror. The doctors came out with disappointed looks. Oh no.


Took your love and wasted all of it, on someone who could care less for you.
I give my word everything I said, came directly from my heart, it's true.


"Andrew Biersack?" One of the doctors called.

"Yeah?" I asked standing up.

"A word," He started walking away and I followed him.

"What is it?"

"He's been stabbed and he lost too much blood. I'm afraid he won't make it." No. He's lying. It can't be true!

I didn't want to believe him, so I ran to the room where they had Ashley.

"Ashley don't die on me!" I yelled at him. "I need you Ashley! Don't fucking die!" I felt tears run down my cheeks and everyone came in and saw me.

"Oh my god." I heard Jake gasp. "Is he.."

"No. He's not going to fucking make it!" I cried. I never cried this much over anything in my life.

"Oh my god Andy I'm so sorry." I felt a pair of arms around me and I knew it was Jinxx. I just collapsed on the floor and cried.

"I can't live without him." I cried. They sat on the floor and Jinxx rested my head in his lap, Sandra rubbed my side, CC held my legs in his lap, and Jake rubbed my legs.

"Andy I know it hurts but you have to stay strong. It's what he would've wanted." Jinxx said, obviously fighting back tears. I just layed there and cried with the four of them for the next thirty minutes.

I finally got up and kissed Ashley's forehead.

"Goodbye Ashley. I love you." I whispered. I just walked out the door and went home after that.
Let it go, just let go. You'll be fine on your own.
Let it go, just let go. You'll be fine on your own.

Unforgiven!
Unforgiven!

It's been three months now. I started dating my best friend, Matt Good. He's great and all, but it's not the same without Ashley.

Nothing's the same.

Sleeping's different, days are different, nights are different, everything. I just miss him. I decided to visit his grave today.

Before I went to the cemetary, I bought flowers.

Roses, his favorite.

I took them to the cemetary and just sat next to his tombstone.

We had him cremated so the big jar of his ashes would be on our bus, while each of us had a small jar, mine obviously a bit bigger than the other guys. We found it ironic how his nickname is Ashes and we keep his ashes.

"Hey Ashley." I started talking to the tombstone, I do that a lot. I feel his spirit lurking there. "I really miss you." I felt a lump starting to grow in my throat making it harder to talk. "I just wish we were married, perfectly in love. Why did you leave me? I know you didn't want to. I-I moved on. I know that's what you would've wanted. I still love you more though. There's no one I would love more than you. That would be just crazy. I would do anything just to hear your voice again. Just to feel your warmth, your lips, just to have you hold me and make me feel protected."

There was no stopping the tears now. They just kept flowing from my eyes.

"I miss you, okay? I miss your smile, your laugh, your eyes. I miss everything about you. I miss the way you'd kiss my nose when I got scared during a scary movie. I miss you holding me when I couldn't sleep. I miss everything. I miss you."